Excerpts about Men, Sex, Cocktails, Girl Talk, and More

The day after my graduation cookout I did the only thing that would get my mind off of festivities that happened the day before. I had hot, steamy, dirty, sweaty sex with Jo. When I have a million things running through my mind and I can’t function right, sex is the best medicine. I don’t bother telling him what’s happening in my life because Jo isn’t there for that, with Jo I can get my rocks off and think about my troubles later. The next day, that’s when the calls started coming. Nathan called literally five times. I don’t really like talking on the phone. It was cool in high school but the only reason I’m really on the phone is to either make plans or find out where one of my friends are. That’s it. Nathan was calling like we were back in a relationship. Here’s a little of the shit he was spewing:

• Babe, I still love you
• Babe, I’m so happy I got to see you
• I know it’s going to take some time but I just really love you
• When are you going on vacation? Can I come?
• Can I see you before you go on vacation?
• I’m feenin’ for you right now
• I just want to kiss you so bad
• I love you
• Do you love me?
• God, I just miss you so much, you drive me nuts!
• Hold on, I’ll call you back, I have to take this call. You better pick up!

You would have thought that I would be happy that Nathan was acting like this but I wasn’t. Deep down, I had unanswered questions that needed to be answered. So I did what any young women this day and age would do, I went on Facebook. Right after I had broken up with Nathan at the beginning of May I deleted anything that reminded me of him, that included his page. I went on under Daniella’s page since she had gotten back on FB after taking it off to focus on her studies. I just wanted to see Nathan’s page to see if he had updated his status to some smart ass remark the day after we had broken up. I found much more than I had anticipated though. Nathan did leave a status about “Running em’ hard” but I noticed some back and forth between him and another chick. Now, we’re not together but don’t be up in my face and calling me up when you’re living a double on FB. The messages between them were beyond flirting. They were “fucking messages.” We all know the difference between flirting and fucking and these messages back and forth were the “Oh, we’re fucking” kind. So I began to do a little more research. Yeah I did it! I found out where the girl lived, where she graduated from college, what sports she played and found her twitter account. Yeah, when I want to find out some shit I channel my inner CIA and FBI agent. The chick wasn’t even private either. I found statuses that dated all the way back from November about her love for Nathan. I found twit pics of them together while me and Nathan were still together. I saw pics of her over his house cooking and him kissing her neck and back. It really pissed me off. There’s nothing worse than being lied to, and even more, he had been cheating the last 5 months of our relationship! I read posts of her watching him train at his gym because he wants to be the next MMA superstar. I read posts from her about letting me go and she admires that he puts other people ahead of his own feelings. Who the hell was she seeing? The guy I was seeing was a selfish dick. The shit wasn’t fair! 3 weeks ago I felt guilty for allowing myself to kiss someone other than my boyfriend (at the time) and here this motherfucker was doubledippin’!!!!! Now I think it’s tacky to go after some chick but she knew about me. Even though she did know about me, this wasn’t about her, it was about me and Nathan. Oh, I was going to fix his ass up real good too ……..You wanna call me up with all that bullshit??? You wanna lie to my face??? You wanna cry in front of me to take you back??? You wanna bring me some bullshit ass flowers, me and my mother?!?!? Oh I’m going to get the last word, cause there’s nothing worse than a mad black woman and he was going to get his……